taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:35 p.m. on Wednesday, June 20, 2001

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 03:46 p.m. on Tuesday, June 19, 2001

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*Cuddles with Ta* Cuz I still didn't leave his arms damnit
Okay today, I went out with my friend Steve ^.^v It was fun cuz we went to the mall. He isn't a mall person but he got paid and he was like, let's go. So we went. We went to this one mall first because I went through the whole damn thing looking for this jersey I want (WAH Little Ghost I didn't find it!!) Anyway, when we went to Suncoast I was like just looking to see what new stuff if any, they had. I was like ugh. Then I saw from the corner of my eye a new box in the Kenshin stuff and I was like O.o oing? So I pick it up and AH!! It's the Kyoto Saga!!! First tape one left!! I'm like ooo I want....but later. So then we went around the mall for a little while and then we went to another mall. There we went back into Suncoast where I saw they had The Kyoto Sage AGAIN and I'm like UGH forget it, I'm buying it. Now I only had about 8$ to my name so I was gonna put it in my credit card. So me and Steve also looked at the DVDs and I saw Fake was there. AHH I LOVE Fake. It's sooo funny Number one, number two, it's Shonen Ai!!! I'm like AHH *scream scream* so I wanted that too and I was gonna put the Kyoto Sage back but Steve was like you want me to get that for you and you can just pay me back later? I'm like AWW I LOVE YOU. So he bought me Kenshin and I bought Fake on my creidt card. Then later when I was telling him I'd pay him back he was like nah it's okay. I was like aww....such a nice guy. And for my late bday present he got me this CD I really wanted and the 1st Cowboy Bebop DVD. I was like Aww thanks so much man. ^_^

I told him if he keeps spoiling me like that, then I would get use to it. He's like I know, I'm trying not to! LOL Ohhh then I saw this DOPE guy. I was like XD~~~ HOT. But I didn't talk to him cuz I was with Steve and I didn't know what to say and I was feeling kinda shy. ^^;;; very rare for me sometimes but it happened. So maybe next time. ^.^v plus knowing my luck I bet he's either gay taken...or both. LOL like Sunnie!!! XD

Anyway oh yeah I almost forgot to post the next chap. Part 41- The Great Rebirth I quit working for Wrath XP I was working for her today, but like....she started ignoring me and I'm like...O.o and then it turned out she was on the phone. (_ _);;;; I was like....why am I working for you now? Bah...I felt so unappericated. *hangs head* I was like oh well...let me just post up this chap anyway. And speaking of Wrath check the Porn Star Woo sekshii. I admit he looked damn hella good there. I was like WOW O.O niiiiiice. Hehehehe.

Speaking of sekshii guys, my Maki-chan got me these pics of Hakuei the leader of Penicillin and I was like AH XD sekshiiness.....

Geocities so cute and paste.
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Teahouse/5147/hakuei07.jpg
Nekkid Hakuei

http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Teahouse/5147/hakuei01.jpg
Shirtless Hakuei Sekshii...I dunno though he's skinny as hell I still like his bod. ^^

http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Teahouse/5147/hakuei15.jpg
Yes he is wearing chaps...cowboy pants...whatever. And yet he still looks good. ^.^v

http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Teahouse/5147/hakuei06.jpg
Not his most attractive pic cuz of the face he's making, but I would LOVE to be that rope...XD

Anyway besides all that, I guess nothing else has been going on. I lost a reader in Deep Blue and I guess that's okay. And now I have to work on my oppa's page because my server is up and I have no excuse. T.T I may have to put writing my fic on pause and that's okay too because my idea is sorta underdevolped. I got an email from Kara today and she's basically saying she'll be away from the net world for a while and I guess that's okay too because....it's not like she was here very much to begin with after a while. I miss her a lot and I still do, but I guess that's the kinda person she is and the person she will remain and I guess when you think about it, having a real life rather then an online life is always better. She IMed me to give me a kiss and then didn't say anything else back. I felt a little disapointed, but only for a second when I realzied that she's busy...and she'll always be busy. Our conversations of the past will remain just that and though I'd love nothing more then to sit and spend hours talking to her again, I know it won't happen. But I did enjoy meeting her. ^_^

*sigh* I had something else to say....oh yeah my old high schools graduation is tomorrow and I'm going to go. I'm a little hyped up cuz Imma see some people I haven't seen in a while and Little Ghost will be there so I'll get to glomp her for reals. I'm taking a camara ^_^ More pics YAY. Hehehehe anyway I guess that's all for now. It's getting kinda long. =P Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 10:30 p.m. on Monday, June 18, 2001

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*Falls in Ta's arms*
*SIGH* working all night...again for Linna....for my Aoki...but I love her so it's all good. Okay anyway....next chap as I promised.

Part 40- The Promise

Okay back to work on the next part~ heheh I can only stay online till like 2 AM tonight before my mom kills me...T.T ugh...pain....=P

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 12:40 a.m. on Monday, June 18, 2001

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I'll Be Dat
Okay....my title makes no sense but like that's the 1st thing that popped into my head.

Aoki is a slave driver. LOL *bounce bounce*

She fronts but she knows she is. *GLOMP* Still love her though

Anyway I didn't crap today. *falls into Taya's arms* I was just in bed. Oh hey and in his arms...mwhahaha...anyway, I was just like watchign Powerpuff Girls on TV all day then I got up to draw a little but not a lot. At 10 I have to go watch my fav show, then be back in 45 minutes then get to work. T.T My mom yelled at me last night to get off online at 2AM abd I'm like T.T ugh fiiiiiine.

BC didn't call so I figured she was sleeping so low and behold my surprise when my phone rang at 3AM and it was her. She wasn't tired she was just out with my unni earlier. I was like oh cool. She had just got home. I'm like whoa. Anyway it was okay cuz Ji Sun called me earlier and we just talked about the stuff we usually talk about. He had me dying with telling me how Hye Sung is crazy and he's like in LOVE with KP cuz he's sooooo over protective of him. I mean how much of a hyung can you be when you don't allow your wife to touch you? (KP and BC are 2gether awww) anywayz an Sunnie was like yo Hye Sung is crazy if she touches him...he'll like steal her first born or sumthin. XD I couldn't stop laughing.

Then he was like Hye Sung is in love with KP cuz he's too over protective. (I mean he calls him MY KP...so yeah...) and Sunnie was like, he fronts about it so much but he is. It doesn't have to be a sexual thing, cuz you can love someone without making it sexual. And the more I thought about it, the more it made sense...maybe Hye Sung is in love with KP....cuz the way I see it, whenever KP is sad/mad, Hye Sung is the 1st one, the VERY FIRST ONE to stand right next to him and say, "Who do I have to kill?" and if KP cries (cuz he does and he's such a crybaby but that's okay!! ^__^) Hye Sung is the only one out of 7 hyungs that babys him and he like lets him cry on his shoulder and like rubs his back and lets him cry and then when he's done he buys him ice cream....all his other hyungs tell him to stop crying and to walk it off...I mean yeah...you can love someone like a friend...but come on. Also Hye Sung is forever being threatend with, U'll make KP sad/mad and he ALWAYS says I don't give a fuck when you KNOW he does. He's just frontin' *pokes Hye Sung* LOL

*yawn* me and Linna were talking about a friend of ours who's getting just a ttad bit too greedy. I use to be her friend and we use to talk and write to each other all the time, but recently she's gotten so greedy everything about her is money money money. So I spaced myself from her. I don't IM her at all any more and I don't write her friendly letters anymore. Just the simple, here's my money sorry to make you wait, later. She treats me like a customer, Imma act like one. Though I hate loosing a friend over money matters. But it's what happenes when C.R.E.A.M...Cash Rules Everything Around Me. It's all her. It's sad too.

*falls into Taya's arms* I'm sooo hungry. I have literally had NOTHING but a bowl of ceral this afternoon when I woke up and that was at...like 2:30 PM. It's now 5 to nine at night. My head hurts and my stomach is growling...geez man. Tomorrow I'm going to the mall and looking EVERYWHERE for my damn black jersey with the white 27 with red piping around it because I want it. I saw it there before so Imma find it and get it!!!! 27 DAMNIT!! That's my number!!! So Imma go look for it 2morrow. And wear it. And plus I have finally decided to get my hair done in one way.

First off, I'm going back to black (whoa...middle school years...) then I'm getting to get 2 thick strands of hair and dye them white.

XD I'm taking Toki to flesh...well sorta...LOL actually I've always wanted that before Toki but now I'm gonna do it. Heehehe well dinner's about to be done, so Imma eat and I'll be back laters to post a new chap before Aoki kills me. LOL. Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 08:53 p.m. on Sunday, June 17, 2001

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Um...
Okay rite...so I went to bed at like....3:30....or so. Maybe 4. And I woke up at 12 cuz my mom was like let's go shopping. I'm like YAY! So we went to the mall and like....I didn't get anything. T.T

I was like, why did I have to go if you're not gonna buy me anything. T.T I asked for one thing was this cute little Hello Kitty angel thingy for your car. You place it in the AC vents so when you turn on the AC, it lets out this yummy scent and the angel "flys" around cuz it's a Hello Kitty angel. ^____^ AND it was green so I was like I want!! And my mom was like later. T.T I pouted for a while...but it didn't work and I din't get it. I was like UGH. T.T

Anyway, here we go Part 39- The Releasing of Makino Junpei I swear I only work for Linna. I'm missing dinner to do this but that's OKAY cuz my dad is on the phone and we usually have dinner all together. I'm like oi...thank God. I'm only posting for Aoki's entertainment I swear. Then once she reads it in like 5 seconds, she'll be done and I go back to work T.T *runs to pick up axe and continue hard labor* LOL no I don't mnd I like working for Aoki though she is a slave driver. LOL Love you Wrath!!!!!!!!

Um...okay lets see....I have to do another chap of 36 Moons and then Deep Blue and then MAYBE do my new fic. No title yet...I'll get one though....later...T.T

Okay I'm done for now. *strectch* my back hurts again. Errr stinky old age. Oh wait...let me explain how my dad wants my cousin from Canada to come by for a litle while. And I'm done cuz she's not a kid...so it's okay AND plus, Maki's father is almost as big a loser as KP oppa's dad (though I doubt anyone could be as bad as KP oppa's dad). Loser -.-v

Makin my Maki-chan sad...*grumblegrumbleyourselfcenteredyouweirdowackedoutoldmangrumblegrumble* okay I'm done ^____^

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:42 p.m. on Saturday, June 16, 2001

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The Most Intresting Thing
Okay I was talking with BC the other night and clear out of nowhere she goes, "You know how you died if you get cruxfied?" and I'm like O.o uh....blood loss? And she goes nope, asphyxiation. I'm like O.O WORD???

She went on to explain how since your hands are nailed above your head and out to the side and your feet are also nailed, all the weight gets put on your torso and since gravity is pulling you down and foward, you have to pick yourself up a little to breathe and after doing it so long you get tired. With the entire weight of your body now resting on your torso, it gets harder and harder to breathe until you die. Blood loss and the heat also contribute making staying alive a kajillion times harder. I'm like WHOA. That is so BAD ASS I didn't know that!!!!!!

Me and my very warped mind thought it was the coolest thing in the world. I meanit's an awful way to go, but damn that's intersting damnit. I asked BC where she learned it from and she goes church. Hmmm....that's what they're teaching now a days maybe I should go to church more often. *shrugs* I thought that was pretty cool. No offense to anyone btw....and if I offended anyone....see BC told you I was gonna. ^.^

Anyway new chap, new chap~ Part 38- The Returning of Ghost, Vengance, Judgment and Wrath Yeah I've been working almost nonstop since yesterday. Once I got offline, I went back to work on drawing. Everyone was giving me the 3rd degree about drawing Tai and Jia...so damnit here we go. My virtue.nu account is shut down for the time being so I can't get in to upload these there so just copy and paste. ^^

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Jia.jpg
Jia, the don of the 36 Moons.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Tai.jpg
Tai aka Judgment, 2nd in command, not Toki like everyone thinks.

http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Junpei2.jpg
I also re-did Jun aka Choas.

What got me started on this whole thing was since Maki got this idea to make us all new tags. I'm like okay. In the process, we also found a Jun which is now BC. ^.^ Anyway so Maki made this DOPE tags for all of us.















And then a general tag for all of us to use. ^^v


They all look so doped lined up in color don't they?? Hahahah anyway I guess that's all for now. I should get back to work. Hehehe but I'm not working for Linna today. Though I really should since I haven't been that motivated to work in a while. hehehehe ^^ Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:30 p.m. on Friday, June 15, 2001

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The Sequal to 36 Moons
Yes I have written that. I finally deicded to start posting tonight. I wasn't sure how many people were actually reading this...but hey I guess I was moved enough to pick it up one more time.

So now all the other yakuza we know and love can come back, SR and DG unni, Linna, Maki, Chibi and myself. ^_^ Long live the H.O.T yakuza!!! And if you don't know....better recognize. MWhahahhaa

Okay...onto the fic. ^.^ But let me stick my great big disclaimer too. *clears throat* Ahem:

This fic will contain male x male scenes. Nothing graphic but that's not a promise!!! Violence, swearing, and use of derogetory (I have no idea how to spell that)words including racial slang and sexist comments.

Okay...onto the fic. ^_^ Part 37- The Rise and Fall of the 36 Moons If you missed the 1st 36 parts of this go to my F.A.Q page (link is on the side you lazy people) and check it out. It's all posted up there.

Um other then that....I've been working for Linna all day...=p heheh and I went out for a little while today with BC and I bought the last issue of Animerica and the Moulin Rouge soundtrack. I loved 2 songs on that. One called Your Song and the other Come What may. I'll write the lyrics tomorrow. ^_^v both btw dedicated to Taya. AS ALWAYS. Mwhahahha

Okay that's it for today. ^_^ nothing else. Laaaaterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 10:52 p.m. on Thursday, June 14, 2001

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.....
kangta did not contribute at all to sunghoon's album. "chook bok" is written by kang eun kyung, as is "1st anniversary."

.........

So if I jump right now....would that be a bad thing?

T.T

*SCREAMS*

SHforever told me that. She sent me an email...sounded kinda rude and snotty....*jekkie fans are vicious O.O;;; I should talk right?* but I guess I understand why.....sorta....>.> *looks off to the side*

*mumblemumblemumbleasimpleyou'renotcorrectwouldsufficemumblemumblemumble*

ANYWAY THAT'S NOT THE POINT.

The point is.....I like something THAT BOI did....no excuse, no reason behind it....T.T

BUT.....

On the upside, now I don't go have to buy his damn album and support him!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

*Does 1Tym dance*

MWHAHAHAHHAHAHAA

YES!!!!!!!!!! The hatered lives on.....

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:35 p.m. on Wednesday, June 13, 2001

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The Coming of Wrath
Okay before I explain my title, I decided to do this too. ^_^ Maki-chan's idea I jus bit off her but she doesnt mind cuz I love her ^.^v

I see - That Linna is pissed off for good reason

I find - That I have the same problem when bitches can't back the fuck up off Ta

I want - Kang Ta <3

I have - 1 wish, to have NRG shut up before Linna kills her.

I wish - That I could go to Korea right now.

I hate - Biters, people that make my friends mad *coughcoughcoughNRGcoughcoughcoughdeathwishcoughcoughcough*

I miss - My oppa deul, my unni deul H.O.T

I fear - Being alone

I feel - Amusment, slight anger, frustartion

I hear - Camui's uncontrol~ ^.^v

I smell - Apple juice ^_^

I crave - Taya XD

I search - for ways of getting closer to Taya, insperation

I wonder - Why the sudden need to piss off Linna? And why do little young ass bitches think they can have MY man?

I regret - Lots of things...mostly ex's

I love - Ahn Chil Hyun <3, my dongsangs, unni deul and oppa deul

I long - for insperation, Taya

I am - Silence, Taya's wifey ^.~*v and a writter

I care - about my dongsangs, unnis and oppas and Ta ^.^

I always - Take my closest friends side

I believe - in my destiny

I have faith - in my destiny and in Taya and in H.O.T

I cringe - when I'm disgusted

I dance - In private so no one can see my no dancing skills

I sing - In private so no one can HEAR my no singing skills

I cry - When Taya does

I learn - That he and I are meant to be

I do not always - Listen to good advice

I succeed - When I feel I have

I fail - When I'm not happy and I fail to make others happy

I fight - For Taya, for the H.O.T yakuza, for my friends

I write - Some okay fanfics

I give - All I can in my writing

I win -Kang Ta ^_____^

I never - Back down from a fight

I confuse - Myself very easily ^^;;;

I listen - to H.O.T (JJANG!) and Jrock

Okay now back to my point at hand. Linna is sooo pissed off at NRG. Why? Easy, this girl wasn't in the Kpop scene, nearly as long as Linna and she goes and stakes a claim in Minu. And we all know that, Minu is Linna's. The way I feel about Ta, Linna feels about Minu, only diffrence is, she just ignores other people, and like....whatever, me, you stake a claim, I ignore you, you continue, I bitch you out and use your name and blow your shit up so fucking wide it's not even funny. And now NRG has found this brand new need to just totally piss off Linna. This is a good example"

Yep, I told ya Id do it, I hope you all like the new look! >.<* hehehe. I just couldn't resist any longer, I just HAD to make that yummy piccie of my dearest darlingest MinWoo into the banner for the forum! I luv him so! As you all very well know by now, haha.

Anyhow, to anyone else who makes banners, any pairing and peoples is fine by me, send em my way i'll put em up! Shina: Your banner is up next, girl! I just have MinWoo on the brain right now and had to satisfy my MinWoo craving. A disorder you say? Yes, but a lovely one it is, ne? Just so you dont think your banner went unloved, trust me! It's the next one to go up!

Yeah.....that's a death wish. What's more that I heard, that SHE didn't even make that banner, Mako did. And she supposdly has this co-moddy in the forum that only did 1 layout and the rest of the time she's asking MY Maki-chan. I'm like why would you bother if you have your own co-moddy? See, I'm helpless I'll admit it cuz I'm not one to talk. But there's a world of difference because ONE, Babydoll is like the shit. Her layouts are bombdiggy and I wouldn't want anyone else making my layouts and TWO, Babydoll likes too. It's the only way she can sign her name all over everything. Hahahhaa ^^ Love you Babydoll.

At any rate, if this keeps up Linna will turn into Wrath on her ass. She's not Aoki for no reason man...and we're not the H.O.T Yakuza for no reason either. I would blow up the spot more...but....damnit Linna already did so...>)

*Hi-fives Wrath*

The battle will prolly continue....but until then, I'm on Linna's side 110% So....

Will all the real, orignal, creative, non biting, non "TRYING" to steal people please stand up....

Your husbands are waiting....mwhahahaha >)

A thought that crossed my mind is, why are people even bothering to begin with? It's a stupid fight right? Well...look damnit we don't need logic. Besides look at this way, when your personal space is violated, don't you wanna snap someone's head off? Yeah I thought so. ^.^v Besides, it's all the principal of the thing.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 08:30 p.m. on Wednesday, June 13, 2001

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Ahem...*tying the noose tightly around neck*....
I'm ready to jump. I'm standing on a chair, with a noose around my neck, just ready to jump. I am going to hang myself. T.T

Okay, you're asking why.

I'll tell you why.

Last night, I was talking to Maki-chan and she told me the name of the song that Taya wrote for THAT BOI's album. It's called Chook Bok meaning Blessing (GAW...that's soooo Ta) anywayz, I actually went to Napster and found it and d/led it. I waited and then I got it and I listened to it and....and....*sob*

I liked it.....

*SOB* It wasn't bad!!!!!!! It was actually GOOD!!! THAT BOI's voice isn't nasel anymore and it actually sounded GOOD. *SOB*!!! It was actually very prettiful and the words were nice and he sang it nicely....*SOB* I liked it!!!!!!! I LIKED WHAT THAT BOI SANG!!!!!!!! *SOB*

T.T

Hence, I'm ready to hang myself.

I've always hated everything THAT BOI has done. You know, singing, dancing, acting, walking, smiling, breathing, living....you know....etc etc. But it's not like I would automatically jump up and say HA! He's doing it, it must suck! No...I always gave it the benifit of the doubt and at least watched him do said activity and to me he just seemed really bad at it...and annoying....and aggerivating, and...well anyway, I just hated when he did anything because it always semed bad to me. I've watched time and time again Jekkie stuff and just sit and wonder, What in God's green earth are girls swooning over and sighing and screaming about? I didn't see it. And I tried to see maybe he's cute...but like...he's not....>.> and I'm like soooooo into that pretty boi, adorable, pinchy cheek thing. But when THAT BOI takes on those qualities I'm like...clutching my stomach trying to hold it down or I'm trying to contain myself from taking a blunt object and breaking the TV or radio or taking my claws and shredding his picture when I see it or holding my ears, falling to my knees screaming MAKE IT STOP!!! But anyway....I actually listened to the song and put aside all my hatered for him and...

liked the blasted song....

He sang it nice...it was very pretty. And now I must go and buy his blasted CD. Well I was going to buy it anyway jus cuz Ta wrote the song. Watch it be like Lee Ji Hoon's CD. I only bought that because Ta wrote 3 songs on it, and strangly enough I only liked THOSE SONGS. And I listened to the whole CD over and over again trying to see if maybe I'd like other songs, and I don't. T.T so I'll buy this CD and prolly only like the one song on it. XD MWHAHAHAHHAA

I still hate him. I'm just....giving him his props. T.T okay so he can sing. I'll admit it. BUT!!!!! he's come a looooooooooooong way from Jekkie. MWHAHAH someone learned to breathe through their mouth. LOL Okay I'm done. ^.^v

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 07:20 p.m. on Tuesday, June 12, 2001

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Soo bored.....=.=
I hate being bored. And I'm like ERG...I wish I had something to do. And I don't. I'm like @.@ Anyway I have to re write this cuz I just got booted off five seconds ago. >.< luckliy I didn't write much. So anyway,

This is what happens when I'm bored. I spill about stuff I was trying to keep a secret. But oh well. Anyway, One, I have a new idea for a fic I'll write as soon as I'm done blogging. No title yet. Two the second part of 36 Moons is being worked on. You didn't think I'd end it like that did you? ^.~* As soon as I have 5 parts, I'll start uploading and posting it here.

A little while ago I went to Sechskies Premonition and re-read one of my fav fics there, Amoure by Igraine. I don't know why I love this fic so much, but I do. I jus like the...I dunno I can't explain but I do like it a lot. Anyway....yeah. When I re-read it, I started to think about Kara...cuz you...it had THAT BOI in the fic. Damn see, even in one of my fav fics THAT BOI is in it, but I still like it. Mwhahah I guess that's good. Anyway....see I'm just rambling because I'm so incredabliy bored.

Linna went away till Tuesday...which is actually tomorrow so she'll be back soon! ^.^ Hooray! Yeah....um...I need to go out. I'm so boooooored. Next week I have some stuff to do. Very little stuff but at least something. Gotta go to my old High School graduation...I'll prolly see my idiot cousin with the identy crisis...IF he gradtuated. Which I doubt he did. Not to be racist or anything, but like...damn my cousin is acting like an ignorant nigga. I'm like O.o damn that's so sad. Cuz I'm saying if you wanna be black, at least be smart about it. Don't be one of those run of the mill, "I'm from the hood and I sell drugs" sterotypes. What's worse is that he's more spanish then I am, and soceity won't see him as an ignorant nigga, they'll see him as an ignorant spic which is sad too. I have no grand love for my race cuz I'm mixed, but damn, people like my cousin just give spanish people a bad name. I'm like uhhh....-.-;;; he's embarassing, he really is. Because they'll relate him to me and I'm like nah man...thats not family. I don't have black family and since apparently that's what he is, I guess he isn't family. Isn't that sad? I've always been close with my cousin because I've known him since he was born. Literally. I'm only about a year older then him, when we were little we looked a lot alike, and he was like my little brother cuz I don't have siblings. Now as an "adult" my cousin has developed a serious problem. But hey that's just him. It's sad, but true.

Um...whatelse...oh YES YEAH BABY!! I'm happy. ^_________^ I just found out that Tale of The Body Thief is now a graphic novel. ^____^ I must get. I have the Vampire Lestat one, (which I paid 25$ for...O.o) so now I have to get this one too. WAHHHHH *bounce* Okay see man I'm just rambling cuz I'm bored.

Okay....pointless blog I am aware...but um...yeah. ^_^ I love you Little Ghost!!!! We have to hang out. What ya doing Sat.? Let me know kay? laterz~

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:58 p.m. on Monday, June 11, 2001

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Wah wah wah....
Ohhhhh my God.

I woke up today, my earliest since I finished school at 1PM. >.< I was like oh wow....I figured if I didn't get up now, i wasn't gonna until 4. Which I should have done ANYWAY cuz my mom jacked the phone and since I have sucky dial up, I needed it!!! T.T okay anyway, yesterday I didn't blog because like....I went to a party real quick. It started at 5 and then I came home at 9:30 so I can watch my show at 10. It was a good small get together party so no big whoop. Anywayz, I watched my fav show an then got online...nothinghappened though. I was online for 1/2 an hour cuz my unni called. O.o

*yawn* okay then anyway, I got my magazines and my mangas today!!! LOTS of good shit. I get some manga's delivered to my house and I got Blade of the Immortal, Oh My Goddess and Vampire Princess Yui...I dun like this anymore. I liked it better when it was Miyu, and the bishie was Larva not Nagi. Anywayz, yeah and I got a H.O.T history poster and it's PREETIFUL!!!! But When time comes for me to hang it, I'm fucked cuz it's H.O.T On both sides. T.T damnit...I wish I could get another one so that way i can have both sides...which actually...isn't a bad idea....hehehehe ^.^v The other posters I got were like gold...O.o which was funkay but so kick ass. Oh yeah heheh the magazines I got was Yo Tomato and Music Life. X.X Taaaaaaaaaaaaa......so so sekshii....XD

Anywayz....uhh...let's see...oh yeah both my posters are gonna get jacked. My unni loves Hyukie, and BC is all about Junie....WAH!!!! I'll never have a full set again!!! T.T *sigh* Anywayz...um...yeah I better go write Deep Blue..I'm behind on it. Okay laaaaterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 04:17 p.m. on Monday, June 11, 2001

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Um....
Okay so anyway....

I think my parents are insane. They like went for a walk to a Quick Check down the street....it's like...a million degrees. They're so weird. Anyway, let's see...I'm in the mood to blog.

WOOOOOOOOOO. I finished On Silent Wings *bounce* well my readers have 10 chaps left to read...well 9 cuz I sent another chap out tonight, but as for me, I am DONE with it. I have another idea to write....good thing too because if I didn't someone is gonna kill me eventually.

Um...yeah...oh yeah, my fav show is coming back to Sunday nights at 10PM so I that means I hve to get back off online every Sunday again. Good thing I already finished this fic so no one misses any chapters like before when I got off early on Sundays. ^.^v anyway, besides all that....uh...my Maki-chan made me a fansign!!!! ^_______^ I'll have Babydoll put it up with the others. ^.^ T.T I hate each and everyone of you that didn't make me one yet.

LOL....just kidding. *glomps everyone*

Anyway, um...yeah. I have a tummy ache. Err...it's all grumbling in there. =T stupid stomach. Anyway, I thought of the cuuuutest thing Ta could do to me. (This is what happenes when I have spare time) Like if he came up behind me and (well that's just fun to start. MWhahaha) anyway if he came up behind me an put his hands over my eyes and said guess who. XD I'd melt. *giggle* I wrote that in Deep Blue today. mwhahaha I'm so weird. Anyway, tell me why Little Ghost called me today and she said my name and then like...silence. (Woo silence! Toki!!) anyway so I was like heeeellllllloooooo....and then like the operater came on and said if you're satified with your message please hang up. I'm like O.o wtf....so I wonder what that was all about.

Crankeynesssss.....I'm going to bed. Hahahhaa I'm not even crankey I jus wanted to say that. Tee hee. Laterz~

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 12:36 a.m. on Sunday, June 10, 2001

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Things Today...
Okay...as you can see I didn't go to NY today. -.-;;;;;

I was suppost to.

I wanted to.

But I didn't.

The problem with me going to NY...or ANYWHERE for that matter is my mom. She swears I'm going to killed the minute I step outside my house. I mean I understand her point of view...but like...damn. T.T Anyway, I'm not gonna spend this entire blog gripping about how my mom didn't let me go. Actually it's not like she sed no, I decided not to ask her in the end. When I asked BC what tym we would be getting home, she sed late. I'm like whoa, forget it. My mom will say no right on the spot. So I wished my unni luck and went to bed.

However, I don't sleep till like 4AM so meanwhile I was watching TV, trying to get sleepy. Around 3:45AM I finally got tired and slept. I woke up at 11AM later cuz my mom wanted to take me out with my dad to the mall. I'm glad I went. I got another tape to my Magic Knights Rayearth series, session 2, even though I'm not a big fan of Rayearth...I jus started the collection I figured I'd better finish it. After that, I gotta start Soreccer Hunter (Marron!!! ^.^v) and then Cowboy BeBop, Outlaw Star, and Trigun. Not to mention the Kyoto Saga in Kenshin PLUS Blood: The Movie is coming out. Geez man...so much anime.

Anyway, since my parents wanna drag me kicking in screaming to Upstate NY AKA the middle of NOWHERE where my uncle lives this August, I insisted they get me a laptop. Woooo. LOL And also, I got a new book. I got Lolita. I'm very much into Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles, I mean they changed my life, and the way I look at things because they are so deep. I recommened you read some of her books. But you wanna read her best read the Vampire Chronciales. Most people don't know the order, so here goes ^.^:

Intrview with a Vampire- 1st one. Yes it was a BOOK first, not a movie staring Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise. The whole story is actually very sad cuz it's told from Louis (Brad Pitt's charcter) P.O.V. Plus they took out a BIG chunk of the book out of the movie which made me so mad >.<

The Vampire Lestat- 2nd one. My personal fav. I've read this about 7 tyms in the paperback version (so much I've broken it...-.-;;;) twice in the hardcover, and about a kajillion tyms after that in the graphic novel. This one is told from Lestat's P.O.V (Tom Cruise's charcter) Waaahhhh!! I love this book. It's good cuz Lestat is a pompus person. MWhahaha very arrogant and self absorbed, nicknamed the Brat Prince. Mwhaha ( u may have caught that in some of my fics like No One Else, So Beautiful and So Special each tym where Ta was called that. Heheh anyway, it's funny as well as deep.

Queen of the Damned- 3rd one. They're making a movie out of this one soon, Aaliya staring as the Queen herself. It's gonna be bad...-.-;;;; one cuz I don't think either Brad or Tom is in it, (BOOOOO) and...well they'll prolly butcher the book. Also told from Lestat's P.O.V, not one of my fav's. Only read once.

Tale of the Body Thief- 4th one. FUNNY AS ALL HELL. Told from Lestat's P.O.V when he turns human again. Find out how. It's really good, action paced type book. Read this one about 5 tyms.

Memnoch the Devil- 5th one. The last one told from Lestat's P.O.V. This one may be more offensive, because it's actually told from the Devil, AKA Memnoch's P.O.V...like he retells the bible. But he takes nothing out of text, nothing is twisted to suite him. Actually, it helped me understand the bible better. He takes Lestat to heaven and hell, and back in time to see Christ be cruxfied. Very intresting. Read it twice.

Pandora- 6th one. The most boring one of them all. It's just a basic retelling of ancient Rome. You can skip this one. U won't miss a thing. Told from Pandora's P.O.V, and the story is handed over to another charcater named David. He's brought in, in the 4th book.

The Vampire Armand- 7th one. My other fav. ^__^ Told from Armand's P.O.V. In the movie Intreview, he was Antonio Bandraes. I didn't mind at first until I found out, Armand was suppost to be a cherub faced, Russia, SEVENTEEN year old boy. I was like UGH....anyway this one is good too. Told from Armand's P.O.V. Read this one four tyms.

Merrick- 8th one. WAH!! The last one to date. Only read it once and in a period of a week. Anyway, this one is once again told from David's P.O.V. It's really good and Lestat comes back!! (sumthin happened at the end of Memnoch). It's really good, very sad though...well not really, but sad at one part.

Blood and Gold- Soon to be 9th one. I'm so dying....

Um yeah....so read those if you have nothing better to do this summer. Or your curios cuz they're really really good. ^.^ anywayz, I'm reading Lolita now, you know that story about the guy who fell in love with a little girl she was about 15 an the guy was like in his mid 40's I think? Yeah...it's okay. Kinda slow for now. Okay enough about books. Hahahahah I read Linna's blog...damn man I hate Boa too. Little stank hootchie, scootchie mama needs to stay off Taya man. Hello, you dumb hoe, your like what? 13?? PLEASE....I think he wan'ts a girl that finished puberty, okay thanks ^.^v *rolls eyes* I hate the way she tries to be all cute and shit when she's not....*rolls again* and same thign with SES....don't like them either. In fact, I don't like ANY girl groups. I just like J and Utada Hickaru. I just...ugh hate girl groups. Is it me, or do they all seem like they're trying to be really really cute and like...aren't? Oh and yeah, Linna, Taya does not have crusty toes =P:::: *raspberries* His toes are cute and pretty just like all of him. ^_________^

LOL anyway....um...yeah CHIBI GRADUATED!!!!!! WOOOOOOO. I was thinking about that all day today. I wanna see her again so I can like give her hugs. Heheheh ^_^ I have been out of high school for a year. It goes by so fast. My old high school's graduation is June 19th. I'm gonna go so I can see all my junior friends now be seniors and graduate. Cheer them on and stuff. *sigh* I truely feel old now. But it's not entirly a bad thing. ^.^v

My parents wanna take me to NY 2morrow. Tell me that's not a stroke of the best luck. Plus I got to see my friend Kelly, Phoung and Diana. Whom I haven't seen in like forever. I'm hanging out with them soon. Well at any rate, I better go write, get something accomplished. Heheheh. Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 07:23 p.m. on Saturday, June 9, 2001

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It's My Turn
Okay....so far I read two blogs, my Maki chan's and Linna's that both make me sit and think.

First off...I've come to the conclusion, no one likes themeselves. Everyone wishes they had something different, or could do something to change their weight. They all say, both male and female, I wish I could drop/gain weight, I'm too fat/skinny, my hair is fucked up, I hate the way I look in this, I hate this and this and this, and I hate myself. Hell I won't front, I do it too. But I'm more content with myself then more people usually are. I wish I had a flatter stomach and I wish I was 5'4 and I wish I could dance, sing, free style, do graffiti, speak Korean better, learn it faster, be more creative. But it's just something I can't do and I've learned to accept that. Besides, I can always teach myself these things, and I'll never be the best because no matter how good you are, someone out there is always going to be better. But anyway I wander. I'm content with myself. And I guess I know that no matter what, I'm always gonna be half empty without Ta by my side. When Linna and Maki tried to say they wished they could be what they want for Hyukie and Minu, it got me thinking about how lucky I am. I remember reading the same thing over and over about what kind of girl Ta wants.

Someone about his age, (we're 3 yrs apart), someone who will appericate him, and make him feel needed, who likes not just his work but other gasoos, and physically, someone with big eyes, and long hair. The description if vague but that just makes me think he's not completly and utterly shallow. I fit that pretty well and I am all these things he wants, which is why I always go on and on about how we're meant to be because we are.

And anyway, (I always wander) I'm not the greatest person though. I can't talk to certain friends about certain things, even to BC and D because they don't wanna hear it, they don't get it or they don't follow. My online friends are closer to me when it comes to that. I can't talk to BC about how much I love Ta cuz she hates him, and I can't tell D about it either because she always seems like she doesn't follow me sometimes. I can't talk to them about yaoi cuz it grosses them out, I can't run to BC when I'm hurting inside and I want to cry because she's really cold when it comes to emotions and she can't give advice. I'm very clingy, I'm very dependant on other people and things to make me happy. I just "can't be" happy. Something or someone has to make me that way.

I often find the need to hear I love you, or be hugged for no reason which doesn't happen because BC won't do it and D is often not around. Maki can't hug me because she's too far away, samething with Linna, and Babydoll and Kara, and Jasmine, and Amy, and my oppas who are in Korea. All my people I love and I know that will hug me and tell me I love you for no reason can't because they live so far away. I can't do things on my own because I often feel helpless. I've become to jaded to care about what people, even sometimes my friends think about me. I care what I think about me...and I guess that's okay.

But I seek approval anyway. I want Kara to love what I do, I want her to like it but to be honost and if she doesn't like it, I feel like I failed and I have to do soomething else to get the approval I seek from her. When I get it, I feel better and I feel happy that I made her happy. That's another thing, when I can't do or say anything to make someone happy, I feel useless, and I feel like, what the hell good am I for anyway? Espically when it's a friend. Like in Linna's case, I don't know what to say, and I think to myself, what kind of friend are you? A worthless good for nothing that's what. And I hate feeling that way. I hate my insides more because I have bad temper, I'm quick to snap judgment, I'm fast to be paranoid, like when someone emails me in a very sweet manner, saying they're fans but it turns out all they want is shit from me...it's happened before. I don't like what I write and I think people tell me they like it because they don't wanna hurt my feelings, and I'm like tell me so I can make it better and not do it again. But some won't. Some will and I thank them for that. Vicki, Jinhee, Maki, Kara....I appericate the praise from everyone else, but I prefear total honosty more then anything else and if you really liked it, then thanks too. See and I wander too.

All in all, I can't help but think how everyone hates themselves. And ironically, everyone that does, I love. I love them entirly, flaws and all. I love, Linna's personality and how she's crazy and can make me laugh with her "flubbing around" and how she's silly and lazy. I love my Maki chan's naiviety, how she thinks it's a stupid question and even though it is, it's cute in the way she asked because I love her, I love Kara's crazyness, and the way she's so creative and how she's like so passionate about what she loves to do. I love my Babydoll's creativty too, and her darkness and how things in our warped minds seem funny and she'll appericate something for it's beauty, and not because it's two boys, or just because it's Gackt in a tub full of rose petals. I have more reasons about everyone else I love...but that would take a life time. And it's just strange how these people see themselves so badly, but yet they find ways to make me love them.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:15 p.m. on Friday, June 8, 2001

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=.=;;;;;
*bangs head against desk* *bang* *bang* *bang *bang*

My very sorry attempt at waking my sorry ass up. I woke up at 6:30 this morning. And I was like =.= bad mood, not hungry, tired as hell. But I had to help my mommy do laundry. I'm like uhhh if u didn't need me I wouldn't go. But anyway, I helped her and was in this zombie like trance. I got home and then put away all the clothes took my contacts out and woooooo. I went back to bed. It was like 11 at this point and I woke up at 4PM. Less then 1/2 hr ago for me. *yawn* I feel incrediably weak and like...tender. Like if I did any fast movements I'd hurt myself.

*smacks forehead* I have to ask my mommy to go to NY tomorrow. My unni is going to come pick me up at...wut...5AM? prolly sooner? damn man...cuz we gotta get into the city at 6. >.< my mom is so gonna flip. She's got that thing where she doesnt like me going to NY....we'll argue, and discuss it and hopefully in the end she'll say yes. *yawn* uhhhhh....I'd lie about it....but what the hell am I suppost to be doing at 5AM other then going to the city? See man...=.= ugh okay anyway, I so wanna give a big hug to Linna. I just read her blog and she's really sad.

I can't confess anything. Everything I write here are my confessions. I think the most I would ever have to confess is that, at this given point I feel completly helpless to do or say anything to Linna, and I can't do or saying to see or hear of Kara (she's back but I still miss her ^^) and like....damn. I hate when I feel helpless. I love you Linna, you and everything about you. How can anyone, and that includes everyone I love, how can you all see yourself in such negative lights when I love you all so much and see you all in the best light? I don't get it.

Okay moving about before I get depressed/mad. I went to the doctors the other day an my foot was hurting. The muscle was strained inside and everytime I flexed it, it hurt. Yeah but stupid me I kept wearing platforms. Anyway, so at the doctors, my doctor told me, yeah the muscle is being pinched between my joints. That's why it hurts. Oi...-.-;;; well I got it taken care of so now my foot is well. *yawn*

*bangs head again* I really wish I could get my energy back. I feel so weak. And damn man I gotta talk to my mommy soon. Hope she doesn't wanna kill me afterwards. >.< okay laters.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 04:46 p.m. on Friday, June 8, 2001

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A Tribute to An Seung Ho aka Tony
Okay....um.....yeah today, June 7th is Tony Ah's birthday. Long time member of H.O.T known mostly as the English rapper. Um....other then that, I'm not gonna sit here and pretend I know a whole lot about Tony. ^^;;;;

I like him and such, but like....he's gotta lazy 5th album...so uh...yeah we're just gonna give him his ups when he was cute and young and...uhh...not lazy. Some of his songs, which happen to be my fav, are, All Alone, Korean Pride (also KP oppa's favorite...gee I wonder why) and NBK (Natural Born Killers) He's got his rhyme skills....sumtymz when he actually tries and you know....he's known for those ears! O^.^O Hahahha that and that funky sang ka pool...(double eyelid thing) or actually the fact he's only got one. Hehehe but it's okay~ he plays it well.

My fav Tony era was during TooJi, rocking the mad weave with the blue eyes. ^.^ Thanks to the Log-In show where Tony was playing with this guy, like these question games, his partner was this middle aged guy and then like Hee Jun and Wonnie were hosting and when Tony's partner buzzed in to answer, (you're suppost to say the H.O.T memeber's name, so like if Hyukie's partner answered he's suppost to say Woo Hyuk!), so when the guy buzzed in to answer he goes, TOMI! LOL XD me and BC never got over that. So thanks to that, during Tooji he became Tomi Bloo Eyes cuz those contacts he was wearing were fierce. MWhahhaa.

But besides all that, I guess now it's time for the pics. Lita, Sae sae, you guys better enjoy this...I had a lot more Tony pics then I thought. ^.^v

Okay let's start off with Candy Days. Awww...Monkey Boy...or what Gijimo calls him Georgie. LOL ^.^ Then, there was the Wolf and Sheep Era where they are wore those cool white outfits and of the the many rings seen here. This was also the time they went to LA to shoot the W&S MV. After the very hotness of W&S, where they all looked good (my fav era), we move on to Heng Bok! This was a tym that Tony wore glasses for a while (though not in this pic) I dunno why....but then he stopped. I guess it was a fad? *shrugs* I dunno...hehehe.

After the completion of the 2nd jib, H.O.T's 3rd came out. Yul Ma Chul (which I dont have a good pic of Tony from) was prolly his other best era. He grew his hair out over those ears and he had these...crimpy things in them and he was a brunette for the most part. Hehhee. Then Beet or Hope came out. A very cute song where Tony did....some funkiness to his hair...O.o not asking. After the 3rd album, ( now forgive me because my timeline in my head was totally shot to hell for some reason and I can't remember for shit) the Perfume CF was shot. ^.^ Ah, the cuteness of watching all of H.O.T run on a beach, acting like...well like complete fools. But, as always very cute fools Following the 3rd jib came the 4th, the first title song called I yah where Tony's look represted that of a uhh like law enforcement, kinda cop look...(each of H.O.T represented something) Then came my other favorite look of Tony, Tooji!! check the weave. Somehow only Tony was able to rock that well. This is also where he became Tomi Bloo Eyes to me and BC. ^.^

In between the 4th and 5th album, H.O.T headed to China where they held a few concerts all over. They became very very big. ^.^v They also went back to Korea where they had the Pusan autograph signing and then modeled for Lecaf something that up to their 5th album they did. I liked Tony's pants for some reason. ^.^

And of course the 5th jib, and where Tony cut off all his hair...again... Outside Castle I liked this look and I didn't like this look because...well I hated Tony's pants. LOL. They were funky...espically when he started wearing all those scarves. What was up with that? O.o But, it wasn't all bad. And then of course, their NCD where Tony was boxing and he was wearing these really cool spiffy glasses. I like his glasses a lot. They look really. (but he's not wearing them in the pic =p

I'm just waiting for the 6th jib now. Because damnit I have faith. ^.^ Kang Ta and Hee Jun said wait for them. And damnit I will. But the last pic I have of Tony was a gift I sent to Lita. ^.^ Georgie racecar driver man! Hahahah so cute there. ^.^

So I guess that's it. ^_^ Oh but completly off the subject, *points to side* look at my fansign! Make me one if your a fan or I just love you. Hahahha *cough* I'm staring of a lot of you out there....you know who you are...*cough* =P

Okay. So that's it for Tony's birthday tribute. Hope he had a good one. Happy Birthday Monkey Boy. O^.^O

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 07:31 p.m. on Thursday, June 7, 2001

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Dreams
*sigh* Okay I spent yet another day doing crap. My unni unexpectedly dropped by and I was in my jammies, and like my glasses and like I didn't shower yet because I had just gotten up...oh lord...I prolly stunk. >.< but anyway she stopped by. And because of all her recent drama, she hasn't been involved in H.O.T as much. Which was like booo...but I'm bringing her back. I gave her and arm load of stuff today all Woo Hyuk her fav member including this really nice poster from the NCD that she was like drooling all over. I was like eww *picks up soggy poster* u can have this unni....LOL no let me stop. I gave it to her cuz she liked it a lot. ^_^ It made her very happy. I gave her a luggage tag (because I like Hyukie too jus not that much) and a keychain, a postcard, an picture, a few mag pages and that poster. ^_^ Unni was happy going home. I told her when she had time, she could stop by and we could watch all my tapes so we can bug out and laugh together. Like back in the days. ^_^ wooooo.

Anyway besides that I did NOTHING. I barely wrote. I did a chap of On Silent Wings but that's about it. Little Ghost wants to kill me for leaving Deep Blue where it is now and like....that's pretty much it. OH and I decided to update my page so go check it out.

Okay the last few nights I keep having these really weird dreams where like my bottom teeth fall out. It's rather bloody too and like when I rinse my mouth with water, no bloody comes out jus slightly tinted water...-.-;;; weird? yes I think so too. I wish I knew what these dreams meant. I mean first one I ever had, my top, side teeth fell out and the most recent ones, my bottom side teeth fall out. It's so weird. At one point in the dream, I tried to save it and I bit down on the bottom side one. But it ended up falling out anyway. >.< it's sooo weird. Ugh really bloody too. I dunno...I'm jus weird.

MY BABYDOLL IS SOOOOOOOOOOO CUUTE *pinchy Babydoll*



See what I mean??? OMG she's sooooo cute. I swear if I ever had her in person, I'd jus hold her like a little doll and just pinch her and hold her. Hahah she'd get tired of me eventually. But not before I held her and pinched her and told her how cute she was!!! *^^* She's soo cute. See why I call her Babydoll. Hahaha ^_^

Anyway....uhh let's see....uhh...I hurt my foot. I have to go to the doctors tomorrow at 11AM....UGH =.= I'm SLEEPING at that time. Geez man...so inconsiderate of my mom to make that appointment during my slumber hours. Not like I sleep at night or nutthin....geez man. *sigh* anywayz....uhh let's see....oh yeah...BC is missing!!! I dunno where she went. She hasn't been online and she hasn't called me and she don't pick up her cell!!! T.T hate when she does this to me. =P *yawn* okay that's it for now. OH wait one more thing....

KARA IMED MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sooo down before, and then she IMed me...totally picked up for the rest of the night!! ^_^ Yay! I'm happy now. I can't wait to talk to her again when she has more time. *sigh* hehehe okay now I have to go. Laterz~

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:46 p.m. on Wednesday, June 6, 2001

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Wami, Kuwami, Acid, whatever you wanna call her...
*SIGH* I totally miss Kara. T.T

I think it's pretty obvious. She's been in Japan for a little over 2 months and she's suppost to be back June 3 but it's now June 5th and Kara hasn't made a sound to announce that she's back. I really miss her. I wish she would at least blog to let me know she's okay, that she had a good time or something....T.T *sigh* I really really miss her. After all she is my mentor. Kara was responsible for me being the Lemon Empress. She took me into her skill when we started writing Last Night. I remember being sooo embarassed writing naughty scenes about what pretty boys do to each other. But Kara coaxed me out of that, and encouraged me. And we all know I have this weird "thing" where I just want to please Kara in whatever I write.

She's a lot more complex then she seems and she's deep and she's a good writer that doesn't give herself credit, and she's made me wanna strive to be a better writter. Everyone that has come across her has nothing but good things to say about her (at least everyone I KNOW that knows her)she's really sweet and nice, and friendly and funny, her obbession with Danny, Hyukie and THAT BOI are infamous and she's really creative, although she's a little lazy. But when she's done with anything, it's all worth the wait. She's always busy though...I know that. But right now, I'd give anything to at least have, even a five minute conversation with her. You know....forget the five minutes...I'd settle for her just to come on and IM me to say hi, I'm back missed you *glomp* I have to go. I'd be happy with that. T.T

Wahh...Kara if you're reading this I really really missed you and I'm not alone. I'll write you another lemon of Matthew and THAT BOI if you come back....I'll say THAT BOI's name...I'll completment him...I'll do anything if you just come back. *sigh* =(

Anyway...I didn't blog yesterday because I didn't really have time. I got home around 9 cuz I went to see Moulin Rouge which was good btw. I liked it. It was funny a lot of the time and it had a good romance story. I'm a hopeless romantic at heart, I just happen to be very cynical as well and see the glass half empty rather then full because things never seem to go my way when it comes to guys =p bah. So yeah anyway, besides that, I have to go to the doctor...medical reason, I am once again ill. Nothing major, relax, just something enough to bother me. *sigh*

I wanna go to NY this Sat. because my unni is trying to get an audtion somewhere. I wanna go to cheer her on, first and foremost, then to do a little shopping, meet a few guys, you know whatever. AND to hopefully see Ji Sunnie and Mikey before they head off to Korea in June...I mean later June. *sigh* My high school graduation is the 19th, which just makes me think, wow, I've been out of high school for almost a year now. It feels sorta weird. I dunno. Anyway, besides that, in order for me to get to NY, I have to wake up at 4 AM get dressed in my cute oh so slutty way, and get the the train station by 5AM and be in NY by 6AM so we can get my unni for her audtion. The 1st 200 people in are gurenteed a audtion that's why we have to get there so early. BUT the problem for this to work is, I have to sleep over at BC's house. My mom, (who is mother of a only child, female at that) is waaaaaaay, mega mega mega over protective of me and has this "thing" where she doesn't like me sleeping anywhere but home, going to NY, leaving my house for hours at a time, having a life...etc etc etc...you get the idea. So on Thursday, I have to sit her down and have a long talk with her. I'm 19 freakin years old...I'm almost 20....she reeeeeeeeally needs to ease up, just a little more. She needs to understand, the world is not targeting JUST ME. I think I'll be okay. Besides, I'm not brain dead. I know how to take care of myself just a little. Well more then people give me credit for =p

One time BC was tying her smock on at work and she couldn't do it so I was like (as a joke) damn BC ur so helpless. (ha ha ha going back to the whole Hee Jun is helpless without Ta thing) and she goes if I'm helpless, what are you invalid? -.-;;;;;;

Yeah.... ha ha ha ha....

*sigh*...okay this is getting long...but before I go, just wanna share to lovely ban ban my maki-chan made for me. She's getting good ^_^



Oi....tiredness....I played FFVIII today just to see if I can move ahead any further. Guess what I can't...I totally forgot HOW to play. Must try again later...okay gotta write. Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 07:09 p.m. on Tuesday, June 5, 2001

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I meant to blog yesterday...really I did...
But I had nothing to talk about so why should I bother.

Uh...let's see....I woke up 2day at 11 AM after sleeping at 6AM the same morning. Needless to say I was mad tired. My parents decided to take me out to go see What's the Worst that Could Happen. And I was like...uhh =.=;;;;; I didn't want to go. But I did. I got up and with my nasty unwashed hair, took a shower, got ready and went out. I looked like crap all day but I was too tired and sooo could not careless about my apperance. So I went to see the bloddy movie. Very nice. I laughed a lot. But not as funny as I'd thought it would be.

My eyes are burning....>.< damn contacts.

Okay let's see what else I do....I umm....I came back home, watched some TV, cuz on Cartoon Network they got June Bugs going on for the whole weekend which kicks ass and then I had dinner and got online. I swear man my parents want me to gain back all the weight I lost. My unni poked me the other day an she's like wow u did loose a lot of weight. I'm like cool. And that's weird cuz I eat...just not often cuz a lot of the times I'm not hungry. Though yesterday I polished off a whole bag of cheese doodles...T.T glutton.

Anyway today EVERYONE AND THEIR MOMMA IMed me today. Like I was the shit. I had 6 IMs up and I was like OMG everyone is talking nooooooow.....T.T it took me about three hours to write one chapter when it usually takes about one. I didn't even start Deep Blue until recently. But I still got 4 IMs up. 5 soon once BC comes back. Geez man. Like sooo many people I really didnt feel like talking too kept IMing me. I'm like OMG....WTF....T.T. Which mad the other people I DID wanna talk to feel bad when I sed I got 6 IMs up and couldn't write. They felt like they were distracting me when it wasn't them. Oi....

Okay I guess that's it for now....I got nothing else to say until tomorrow...when I actually have a life once more. Mwhahhaha. Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:52 p.m. on Sunday, June 3, 2001

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My Very First encounter with Norebang
Mwhahah I had always been told norebang was like....wack.

Thanks a lot KP...David, Hye Sung, Chun Hae, Ji Sunnie oppadeul....

But tonight, I changed my mind. I went to norebang with my unni Yoonie, BC, Little Ghost, Christine, and unni's friend Yoko. Okay first off, Little Ghost was late as usual... and it was just BC, unni and me. MWhahahah. we sang like American songs but we busted out our Korean skills. (or lack thereof ^^;;;)But I jump ahead.

Okay I got ready around 6 when BC called. My unni came and picked me up and we went to her house. There we waited for BC and while we waited, unni got dressed, put her make up on and drank a few shots of Bacardi with me. >.< I drank a little before hand which made me go uhhh....hahahaha I didn't get drunk, jus a little light headed for a moment. It's what happens when u don't have anything to eat before hand. Anyway, BC came and then she drove us to norebang. Our orignal intent was to play pool, but the hall was closed so we went to norebang.

We started singing. MWhahah some of the songs we did were Wedding X-mas (AH!) but i forgot all the words but the end -.-;; and Yo!, 1Tym, Ching Ching, Heng Bok, WRTF, One Love, and like... BC, and Little Ghost busted out with All Your Dreams by Shinhwa. I didn't know the song so I watched BC and Little Ghost rip! MWhahaha Little Ghost even got up and did part of the dance. MWhahahha it was mad fun. They also sung Right Here Waiting...and I was like T.T oh God...I got all sad... cuz It jus mad me think of Ta. AND AH! I saw Ta!! When we were singing 1Tym's ching ching, Inhyung came on, which totally fucked me up cuz I saw Ta...I totally forgot all the words >.<

By that time everyone was there. It was great. I just wish I had pics!!!!! No one brought a camara....booo. T.T

On my way home, BC got mad at me cuz I smoked with unni during norebang. BC can't stand smokey enviorments....so she was kinda vexed, saying thas me, fighting with my inner demons. >.< needless to say the ride home was the only crappy part cuz she didn't talk to me the whole way back. *sigh* But it was fun anyway. I got to see Little Ghost again which is ALWAYS good. Mwhahaha. I'm glad to see her again.

Anyway...I guess that's pretty much it. ^.^v so I sang my lungs out and poisoned myself in a few ways. >.< good thing I don't do this on a regualar tip....Oi. >.< and I didn't write tonight. Only one chap of On Silent Wings but it's okay. At least I didn't do ANYTHING. Okay. I'm a little tired. Much laterz. Peace~

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:25 p.m. on Friday, June 1, 2001

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*Yawn* Man it's late.
And I'm still online. ^__^ Good thing though. I'm finally talking to SR unni. Wooooo Tai Tai!!

I started talking to her about what would happen if we saw H.O.T. Well duh, I'd cry. I know this from jump that the moment I saw, Ta in the flesh I'd jus cry. When I'd regain myself, I'd propose....I have a masterplan. he'd say yes damnit. MWhahahhaah SR unni u know why he would. ^_^v

*sigh* Little Ghost is so wack. She blogged today right and all she kept going back to was Jinnie's nekkid body. *cough* ONE TRACK MIND.

I should talk though ^^;;;;;;;

Anywayz....yeah I sorta worked on KP oppa's page today. ^^;;; all I did was just take down everything and put a new bg up and wrote in big bold letters, UNDER CONSTRUCTION. MWhahhahaa. I didn't feel like working onit though. I wasn't in the mood. Hehehhe. He's gonna be like hey...but you know what...I'm no html God like he thinks I am. I have NO IDEA where he got this idea from. oooO there's gonna be a Shojocon soon. ^.^ Why am I hyped up about girl shit? Easy,

YAOI!!!!!!!!

Only chicks dig yaoi...welll not ONLY chicks...but mostly chicks. MWhahaha it's like chick flicks...but for a twisted brain. Mwhahhaa. It's not better then Yaoi con in Florida, but you know what, I'm content with this....is it Flordia or Kali? I can't remember...but anyway the point is, I can go to this one because MWHAHHAH I AM OF AGE!!! MWhahah I love being old now. I'm over 18 and in the state of Jerzee, to be considered an adult, one must be over 18. And I am. MWhahaha this is cool as hell. Maki chan might even come! Which would be oh so skippy on my part. ^.^v I can see herrrr!! Wooooooo. I'd be able to hug mah maki-chan which is cool jiggy beans.

I was talking to Little Ghost earlier today and she said Sean, from Jinusean is coming up to Jersey! I'm like AH!!! YES!!! MWHAHAHHA Sekshii Sean's body is coming to Jerzee!! WOOOO her, BC and me are going to see him when he comes up. Cuz damnit I love Jinusean too. Jus too bad it's JUST Sean and not Jinu AND Sean AND 1Tym. But it would be the hotness if they ALL came. Mwhahahha Let's just hope huh?

Anyway....*yawn* It's lae and unless I want my dad to give me the 3rd degree for being on so late...cuz he's still being weird, I better bizounce. OH but one more thing, I decided to NEVER EVER write sap again. I wrote a MinWan for that pic I posted before....no one responded and granted, I don't right for the comments and praise, but a little every now and then would be nice. T.T After all I need to know SOMEONE read it. Hahah I do know 2 people read it, but you know whatever...never writting it again. =P

Okay now I'm done for realz. I must bizounce. Gonna get in trouble. Hahahah laterz~

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 12:05 a.m. on Friday, June 1, 2001

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Not a Guru
Okay KP thinks I'm sum html God apparently.

I'm gonna do it....but what does he want from me!!!!!!! T.T I have NO idea what he wants from me!! but I'll do it...GAW oppa is sooooo lucky I love him....geez man...T.T

OMG....good thing I have buttons and stuff...geez...

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 12:05 a.m. on Thursday, May 31, 2001

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New look
Yes yes yes.

I finally got a new layout. ^____^ *hugglez* I love my Babydoll. Isn't she mad good at this shit? I love how she makes my blog look all prettiful. She's such a perfectionist and thinks half the time it's bad but I love it. I love everything she does. She got them skillz man. ^_^v

Anyway I also got sum new stuff on the side. *points* I got my F.A.Q page lined up there in the links so go and sign my freaking guestbook because apparently only like....5 people love me. And also a new thingy to get linked up. Isn't that kawaii? Of course Babydoll made that too. ^_^

Okay so anyway I did nothing so I don't really have anything to say other then I forgave my unni. The other one that I was talking about before. She's my unni again. I realized that if I kept this up, I was gonna miss out on a lot of stuff....BC forgave her and I guess....deep down I really missed her too...so why not forgive her? Besides she's made a huge leap on her behave calling me and IMing and stuff...and she wrote to me twice...so I guess, I love her a lot still and I miss her too. So I forgave. It's all good. Besides, I guess somewhere in the long run,I'll need a unni that's close by and can hug me when I'm sad. ^.^v

Woooo. What else did I do....um...uhh....LOL I screwed around and didn't get shit done. But I'm about to finish another chap of ...Deep Blue. Long ass title...ugh. I regret titling it so long. Hahaha ^^;;; anyway what else. Oh yeah....I love Ta. *PERMA GLOMPS TA* Mwhahahhaaha yeah Shabby...better recognize. ^_^

Songs I am Now Addicted To:

Glay's, Glorious, Innocense, However, Beloved, Rain and Happiness

Matthew's Murmur

Gackt's Thinking under the moon, Seven, Cube, and uncontrol.

Mwhahah okay. I'm done. ^.^ Hmm I guess I better go write. I'm falling behind again. Aiya....T.T

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:26 p.m. on Wednesday, May 30, 2001

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KAWAII!!!!! *squeal*
Okay so I mood swing but I have gooooooooood reason damnit.



KAWAII!!!!!!! Soooooo cute!!!!!!! ^____^ Can not get over the over all cuteness of that pic. I got it from the Forever with Hye Sung Forum so credit to them. KAWAII!!! I bet Linna will love this...if she hasn't seen already. ^.^

MINWAN MINWAN MINWAN MINWAN JJANG!!!

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 12:02 a.m. on Wednesday, May 30, 2001

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UGH! WORK OF SATAN!!!!!!!!!
Fucking Pitas man......

My 1st complaint. I had this LOOOOOOONG entry and fucking this piece of shit *kicks the crap out of pitas* fucking goes and deletes it all!!!!!!!!!!!

I was ALMOST DONE too.....T.T

And it was cute and funny....I had this nice convo with Gijimo....T.T now it's all gone and I'm not doing it over again because it burns me up just thinking about how much I freaking did just to have it erased. Piece of shit.

Okay I'mma go....I'll blog 2morrow.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:27 p.m. on Tuesday, May 29, 2001

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T.T
Okay for 2 days, my dad was being a big spooty loser and not letting me online. He's on his high and mighty, I'm king of the world attitude. So I'm like aiiiite whateverrrrr. So I just locked myself in my room waiting for him to...go away.

I had lots of mail to check and like so much to write. I'm a bit behind and I haaaaate that. And because of that I wasn't able to get on and bid for my Taya set on this auction and it was SO MINE (_ _) *sob* Oh well....*sigh* maybe next tym. Anyway I also missed being online to listen to my J-Rock. UGH I so need to hear it. I love it. It helps me write. And that also meant I couldn't listen to Matthew. *SOB* T.T bah. Not like I can listen to it now anyway my dad is home and in the living room.

Wah Linna!!! *sob* I missed you soooo much!!! I wrote to you ^____^ sent u piccys and stuff. And AH the pics!! =D~~ look at the sekshiiness. Dong Wan's sekshiiness okay, now this I like cuz I loved the line of his body...Line...what am I Tony? LOL (LIIIIIIINE) anyway he's just got a nice bod. Mwhahaha. Ooo ooo and then then, the sekshiiness of my 2 fav Shinhwa members I love, looooooove when these 2 strip. Man the sekshiness of the bod and because of Little Ghost I, too, am lookin up their shorts...I think they got breifs on. >.< ew tighty whiteies! LOL well not like they can free ball and not like they can wear boxers and they must have SOME kind of support. ^^;; um...why am I talking about their balls and shit? anyway!!!!!!! And this pic is just nice cuz Duh it's Minu look at those gams man. LOL woo woo sekshii legs. MWhahha let me stop and he's flexible. I showed BC and I sed, BC check out those gams. She's like hee hee kay. SO she goes and she's like, why is he so damn fine? Why? (I dunno it's the same question I ask about Taya) I'm like look he's flexabile. She sed, I can make good ideas from the pic. >) NAUGHTY BC!!! I know Linna I know, No touchie. LOL Same thing wit Little Ghost I know, I know No Touchie.

Anyway, I talked to my former unni today. *sigh* it wasn't so bad. I dunno I did miss talking to her...she was like begging for forgiveness and asking me to please forgive her and saying she regretted ever shutting me out and stuff. I said I didn't know if I could forgive her but I said I'd consider it. Needless to say it was weird, and I didn't call her unni. Babydoll sez I should only call someone unni if they deserve it. Like my Minni unni *hugz Minni* Anyway, what else....uhhh...yeah BC glomped me...which was weird. She's not the glomping type.

*sob* Linna!! Maki-chan, Little Ghost!!! *sob* I miss you guys!!! *GLOMP* Man I prolly missed all the perv jokes when Linna showed Little Ghost those sekshii pictures of Shinhwa.

Oh yeah....all you people stink. T.T I have a guest book and I expected at least, AT LEAST 10 entries....I only have 5. You people ae so mean. I am only loved by 5 people *sob*

I'm a wee bit dramtic aren't I?

La la la la...I miss Joolez...*GLOMPS JOOLEZ* and Kara. T.T God I can't wait till Kara comes back. So um...yeah. OH YEAH!!!!! Man I read the best 1x2 fic today called a Hate Hickey. It was great. I so gotta find the first part to it and then link it here so U guys can read cuz it's great. Mad funny.

CD's on my list that I still must get:

Matthew's (both of them)

Drunken Tiger 3

Eve 4

I hate having stuff to get. T.T so upseting. AND finally, freakin finally, 1Tym is coming out with their 3rd. Geez man...bout tym.I miss my Jin Hwannie!!!! Yeah and let's see...umm...Linna...Janie wants to know why a strawberry popscile. Um...la la la la la....*looks off to the side*

OH MAN and that reminds me. Little Ghost and I once casted all the people from FY to Shinhwa and H.O.T....man I only remember Hotohori was Taya *sqeal* and...damn that's it...NO NO Mitsukaki was Woo Hyuk....LOL that's it..and I think Taiski was Tony? or was the Chichri? Well anyway after Little Ghost and I re dissuss it, I'll post. But for now, this is long. Must bizounce. Laterz!

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 11:46 p.m. on Monday, May 28, 2001

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The Fundamentals of being Me ^^;;;
Okay today was laugh a lot day. ^^ First I talked with Little Ghost. And we were being dorks about the whole "No touchie" thing LOL We got into a disscussion about what we would do if we saw sum heffiers on our men. I'd sed I jus break her arm and be like "No touchie!" LOL That was funny. Then we got serious...sorta...on how I would just break the bitches toes. And Little Ghost is like...toes? I didnt get to finish cuz she had to leave but basically, yeah her toes cuz I'm a big fan of platforms. And I would jus go up to her all calm like and then jus bring my foot and all 5 pounds of my platform down on her dainty toes and break them all while saying "No touchie" Mwhahahaha XD

Then me an Linna were talking about food. Cuz I wanted pie. Then a random thought popped in my head. If Ta was food what would he be? I was thinking something sweet and Linna sed something vanilla. And then I got it, he'd be a dish of vanilla ice cream with peaches XD yummy...and then we started talking about what Woo would be. I sed a drink with booze in it. And she sed sex on the beach >) nah...a screwdriver. Hahaha I agreed with the screwdrier until I remembered the blow drier thing...so he'd be a blow job. LOL It wasn't as funny until I REALLY remembered he was trying to blow dry his nuts with a blow drier which just made me say straight up, he's a blowjob!!!!!! LOL XD

-sigh- for all my innocents out there, a blowjob is an drink. Anyway so yeah...that was pretty funni. Hmm and now that I think about it what would the rest of H.O.T be? Hmm well let's see...Hyukie would be a brownie sundae, dripping with vanilla ice cream and hot fudge, Tony a bananna split, Jae Won would be an eclair and Junie would be an tomato. ^_^ Mwhaha got that everyone? Okay one more time:

Taya= Vanilla ice cream with skin

Woo Hyuk= Brownie sundae with vanilla ice cream and hot fudge

Tony= Bananna split

Jae Won= Eclairs

Hee Jun= Tomato

Mwhahaha and now for Shinhwa since we did Minu. Mwhahah okay Minu is booze. He's a blowjob. Andy is a cherry...heheh *^^* kawaii. Jin is a candy cane...>) think about that one. Dong Wan would be a watermelon, Eric is dark chocolate, and Hye Sung is strawberry popscicle...umm reasons known to only me an Linna. Got that? okay one more time:

Minu= Blowjob

Andy= Cherry

Jinnie= Candy cane

Dong Wan= Watermelon

Eric= Dark chocolate

Hye Sung= Strawberry popscicle

I am SO weird tonight. LOL well okay I guess that's it...time for me to write a little more...cuz I'm jus bein weird now. Mwhahha Little Ghost is gonna love this...^.^v

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:57 p.m. on Friday, May 25, 2001

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Snapple...not wait..ah fuck it..
Okay for lack of a better title, I named it that okay? Okay. ^____^

Okay I got my monkey DJ All Day I Dream About Spinning shirt!!! ^___^ Imma wear it and then take a pic of it. ^^ Let's see besides that...I umm...hm what I do> I did nothing. Hahahah. I slept until 2:30 today because yesterday I slept till 3. I couldn't sleep...I was so NOT tired. So then...yeah. Anyway, I then got up and took a shower and chilled. My mom had jacked my car so I had no way of doing anything today. Boo.

Okay well...let's see...randomness....Babydoll is going to buy a vibrater with Hello Kitty on it. ^^;;; um...okay. Hahah I saw a picture of it, and I started laughing with her. I mean it's cute...but it's a...vibrater...so yeah.

I need to go to Mcdonalds and get one of those Happy Meals with a Hello Kitty toy. I want another one! ^___^ Last night in my, nightly staying up late, I wasn't (for once) on the phone with BC so I drew. ^.^ guess whoooo....mwhahah Linna love me, I finally drew Aoki Hahah I don't like the shading a lot...I could have done better but hey...what you want at 3 AM?

Oh yeah I also got around to finding the pics of my room I had taken like a kajillion years ago. So I guess...I'll post? I dunno I love my room, though it doesn't even look like this anymore. Corner wall This is the first wall you see when you walk into my room. Notice the big LIFE SIZE poster of H.O.T Goodness. And this is the same wall, going further right. Lookey again, life size...well bigger then life size, but the point is, that it's BIG poster of H.O.T. Lookey my Belldandy tapestry. ^.^ That poster took excatly ONE HOUR to put up. =p Had to make sure everything was lined up. This is the wall right next to my window my window is that black thing. I got curtains. Sunlight is evil. My little H.O.T/Taya corner ^_^ And this is the same wall on that side. I have no idea why is b&w...but this is right behind my bed. ^.^ And the last pic is same wall going further right This is right in front of my desk so I can just look up and see my baby ^.^ I dunno...my room doesnt even look like that anymore. I re-arranged a lot of stuff and took down old stuff and put up new stuff. The one wall with a lot of little pictures if different now. It's got big posters up ^_^ *sigh* shows how bored I am.

Okay time for me to go write. ^.^v mwhahha I'm still on a roll. Tee hee. Laterz.

One Luv~*

taya crawled between her bedsheets @ 09:53 p.m. on Thursday, May 24, 2001

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